Why My Heart is Extra Full Today

My heart is extra full today and my heart aches a little more than normal.

Today marks 'one year' that Emmie has been gone from this earth. My heart aches daily for my Sister, Jason, Ava, Elsie and Ivan.  I honestly don't know how they do it day after day.  After watching Emmie's video last night, my mind was flooded with so many awesome memories and so much love! I was balling like a baby. I think we all have been in survival mode and have suppressed the pain of Emmie's passing. Emmie softened things in our family and always helped put life back into perspective! I miss her. I miss watching each of my children serve her. She was a special gift that our Father in Heaven gave to the Simas family. The more time that goes on, the more I realize what an impact she has been on each of my kids!

I am especially grateful today for the knowledge of The Plan of Salvation and that I know that families can be together forever, beyond the veil. I am grateful to know that Emmie's spirit is alive and she is working hard and watching over her extended family! I KNOW this to be true and could never deny some of the sweet experiences we have each had individually, since she has returned home. She is my motivation to live better every day and strive to be more like our Savior, Jesus Christ, so that we will be reunited someday.  I am grateful for that hope and knowledge of God's plan.

Another reason my heart is filled with gratitude today, is because my Mother has prepared herself to go to the Temple for her first time to take out her own endowments! Today is a day I have been waiting for, for many years! I KNOW Emmie is so proud and has played a huge part in making sure this happens. My mom is an amazing person and who has taught me how to serve and nurture my own children! I love her and am so proud of her. Today should be a day filled with many different emotions and a very special day!  One that I will remember forever.

These last days with her at home, were sacred moments that will be treasured forever.  I love these pictures because they remind me of how much love filled this room.  The spirit was unbelievable and it felt like the heavens were literally open.  It is a feeling I don't ever want to forget.  Emmie was truly an angel here on earth!

Click here: spencekayanddude.blogspot.com to view what my sister in law has to say to Tiff from Emmie.  It's precious.