When I arrived at the hospital this morning, Tiffany and Jason were just finishing up with hospice... working out all the details to get their princess home. Right where she should be! They agreed that Emmie would want to spend her last precious moments at home, in bed, right between her mom and dad! That is her favorite spot in the house and that is where she will sleep tonight. They feel so blessed to be able to spend these last tender moments at home, with their angel.
We laughed and then we cried and laughed and cried... all evening! We shared our favorite "Emmie stories" and just talked about the great times and many memories we have of our sweet girl. We will hold these memories close to our hearts, forever.
My kids each had their own Gethsemane tonight... it tore Scott and I up! I knew they would have a very hard time, but I had no idea it would be this hard! She is the celebrity in our family. Literally. Our kids are very comfortable at my sisters home and spend the night there, regularly. Cooper, Cannon and Sophie really thought it would be no problem to just sleep on the floor next to Tiff and Jason's bed tonight! We finally had to pull them away and they cried all the way home! Sophie and Cannon are both scared and don't understand death. They are both in our bed again tonight!
Emmie had so many visitors come to see her this afternoon and through out the evening. It was so nice to see so many people show their love and concern for Emmie, her parents and sisters. We feel so, so blessed and loved. I know my sister and Jason appreciated it so much. The spirit and love in their home right now, is unbelievable. It felt like what heaven will feel like. I didn't want to leave.... and my impression is, is that Emmie is struggling and doesn't want to leave her mom and dad either! I am sure she is having just as hard of a time as we all are. I can only imagine what she must be going through and I can't wait to someday find out how all this works, on the other side!
As far as Tiffany and Jason are doing, they have both grieved differently. They both are strong and have solid testimonies of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. But, as much as you understand the plan of salvation, it still doesn't take the pain away! It still hurts so bad. Their courage amazes me and I know they will understand someday why Heavenly Father needed Emmie for a more important calling on the other side. Emmie has blessed all of our lives in so many different ways. We will just miss her so much, that it hurts! Down to the core.
Our friend, Kristyn came over this afternoon and took these precious pictures on Tiff and Jason's bed. I love their matching pajamas! Priceless.
Thank you for the many prayers that have been offered. Our prayers are still pleading for Jason, Tiffany and girls to continue to feel our Saviors love and to find strength beyond their own at this most difficult time!
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I've been able to keep it together for the most part; but those pictures did me in. My gosh, Emmie is sooo beautiful - and her sisters lover her so much. Today I pray from strength - for the whole family.
What a precious family picture! I don't know you Tracey, but the words you have shared with all of us, about this trial have been so beautifully inspired. How grateful I am for a knowledge of eternal families and the wonderful plan of salvation! I know that the gospel has been and will continue to be such a strength to Tiffany and Jason and your whole family! What an honor it must be for all of you, to have Emmie in your lives! Her spirit shines so brightly in the beautiful pictures I have seen! What an amazing spirit she must have! Please let Tiffany and Jason know that my thoughts and prayers are with them, and will continue to be, as they share these sweet moments as a family!
My heart is aching for Tiff and Jason. They are such amazing parents. Tiff is such an amazing person and mother. What a blessing Emmie is for them and also them for her. It's true even though we have the gospel it is so devastating to suffer a loss. I promise the Savior will not leave you guys right now. No matter how hard it gets he is there to help you make it. My prayes are with you all especially tiff and Ja. May you be lifted up and feel the Saviors peace at this difficult time. What a perfect little angel Emmie is. Love you guys
I am praying that your family will have peace throught this difficult time. My thoughts are constantly with you and yours. Thanks you for the beautiful example of Family you are.
I love the pictures they are such a precious gift to have! What a beautiful family!
Your family will treasure forever the pictures you and others have taken. Our family is praying for comfort and strength to come to you and your family.
Beautiful, Tracey. Thanks.
So glad Krystyn came over. I was going to see if you wanted me to come and take some pictures of everyone together, talking, laughing, crying, and loving together. I know you could do it, I also know you are grieving too. Call me if you need anything and I'll be there: 480-205-9435
Let me know if you need anything at all. Thank you for the updates. We have been praying for Tiff and Jason and their girls. Love you guys.
There are no words that can express how you all feel and how everyone that knows Emmie's feels. It is very comforting to know that she is at home now surrounded by everyone she loves and loves her. You are a very strong family with such a great support system that I know you will all do fine. It is a very rough time for all of you. It is a precious time to spend with Emmie and all the people that love her. You will have wonderful moments to spend with her and amazing memories to share with everyone. I am so grateful to have gotten to know and become friends with Debbie and Emmie. I know the words to the Strawberry Shortcake song and Emmie is just that. The sweetest child ever. The love that Debbie has for Emmie always uplifted everyone in their presence. You are an amazing family with such great love for Emmie. I do not know Tracey but I did hear so much of you and your whole family through your mom who loves all of you guys so much. It is unbelievable how you can put into words all that you have for us to share at this time in Emmies life. You all are an inspiration to others to be able to keep it together for everyone and share these words with us. The pictures are beautiful and so full of love. She is and always will be a special little angel to everyone. my prays are with Emmie, Tiffany, Jason, Ava, Elsie and your whole family. You are always in my thoughts. Love, Anna
I'm bawling right now! I love the pictures and your beautiful words.
I have tears running down my cheeks. I think of how very choice your sister and her husband as well as your entire family must be for Heavenly Father to have trusted all of you with one of his elect daughters. A perfect daughter. Such a tremendous blessing. Thank you for sharing this story, Tracey. Thank you for also sharing your beautiful testimony. Your family is in our prayers.
Love,
Xela
I know it is hard. I have gone through the same things.......if it is Emmie's time to go to the other side, maybe telling her to go ahead is the right thing to do. I had to tell those same frightening words to my little girl and 45 min later she left this side of the veil.
Don't get me wrong, my heart is aching for you and your family, it realy is and you are in my prayers and thoughts daily.
Tracey I don't know you but I knew Scott at BYU and I'm friends with Nichole, Shawni, and Steph Wallin...Steph posted on her facebook about Emmie today and I just wanted to say how touched I have been reading your sweet blog. She looks like she was an incredibly loved little girl. My heart breaks for your family's loss and you are all in my prayers going forward through this very difficult time.
THAT WAS BEATUFUL.
HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL.
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